Any1 else dreadin period time in the next few days?

hi..im due my period on mon 28th april,cant bear the thought of these next 3 days..i know deep down im not pregnant this moonth again..god i wish so much i could have one of the bfp on mon but the likelihood is slim..have no symptoms what so ever got a lil discharge but prob just pre period..im findin this harder and harder every month..lost my only 2 kids one aged 6 weeks and one in m/c..i need some home to keep this ttc business up.any 1 else in same boat...all i can ask is why cos after so much heartache now we just cant concieve....wouls like to hear from others in same situation..just need a few bits of hope..thanks and ababy dust to us all. xx